I'll go walking, after midnight...

A few days ago I posted on my Facebook that I was paying more attention to how I sat and stood. And especially how I walked. A friend suggested I try to do so in heels, so I went out and got a pair of cute black heels yesterday to practice with.

So far I have spent at least 30 min. per day walking in them. It makes me feel so nice to become a better sissy.

I repainted my toes a cute red color too.

<3
Cindy

Blues & Pinks (Fiction)

Last night was wonderful. I got to talk to Miss and delight her with my service. She was kind enough to allow me to put on my new pink thong panties and my new red lipstick. She had me suck on her cock for exactly one minute, which I did greedily. Spreading my spit and red kisses all over it and loving it between my parted lips. The panties felt so good, restraining my tiny niblet and feeling the thong against my pussy. Mmmmm.

Miss then had me move the thong out of the way and told me to sit on her cock. I do so love when she fills my pussy for her amusement. I slowly lowered myself down onto it, feeling it slide in me, moaning at being stretched and filled for her. My tight pussy aching and burning so good as it penetrated the full 7" deep inside my needy cunt.

At her continued direction I started to rock back and forth on it, letting it slide in and out.. moaning like the whore I am for her... my hard clit pressing against the front of my panties, my fingers swirling around it in small circles as I ride her phallus and slip into bliss. I type with my free hand and tell her how good it feels, how I adore her, how my useless clit is dribbling pre-cum into my panties.. and then as she instructed, I stop just before I cum.

She has me fetch my cum tray while keeping the cock buried in my pussy, I waddle to the freezer and get it. Upon returning she tells me to pull my panties off and look at my tiny clit, to see how small and worthless it is and be ashamed it would never be good for a real woman. She tells me to rock back and forth on her big cock, her real cock that is so much bigger than I will ever be, to fuck myself until I cum.

At her direction I do so, legs spread like a good sissy girl.. her dick in my pussy and my fingers dancing across my tiny digit until I cum, all the while ranting to her how good it feels, how I ache to be her sissy, to serve and worship her.. to be hers completely. [swoon] When I cum, half goes in the cum tray and half gets spread onto her cock, now removed from my pussy and leaving me feeling very empty but well used. I clean the cum from her cock and go wash it off.

I return and talk to her for a bit as she graces me with her presence while doing her nails. I hope I can paint her nails for her someday.

This morning, with her approval, I redid my cute little tosies a dark shiney blue. I am going to put on some heels and practice walking in them for a while.

Red Lips & Kisses (Fiction)

I slowly walk into the doorway to the living room where Miss is waiting for me, conscious of my heels and how my hips sway. Trying to ever be the best sissy I can be for her. Miss Aslyn is standing at the far end of the room, dressed in a cute black skirt, a silky red top unbuttoned just enough for me to see her amazing breasts held in by a pretty lace bra, and wearing her favorite heels.

Knowing it is time for my worship of her, one of the many things I live to do, I saunter over to stand before her. As I walk, I can feel the large black plug filling my pussy the way she likes when she is not using me. A reminder as all the rest, of my place and station.

She walks around behind me and checks to see if my plug is nice and deep inside her property, lifting my skirt and tapping it slightly with her fingers. She giggles and continues her circle until she is standing in front of me as before. She lifts my skirt again and rubs the front of my panties, my little clit twitching at her touch under the soft material of the panties and my nylons. "I know I say it all the time, but that thing is truly pathetic. But you know that don't you? That is why you wear panties for me, and take my cock in your mouth and cunt. That is why you are my sissy girl, desperately trying to earn my training. That is why you lick my ass and worship my body...you are not good for anything else... well maybe cleaning." she laughs again and motions for me to kneel and I do.

Kneeling before her, she looks down at me as if judging my make up, the shape of my eyebrows, and my slutty red lip stick. "You need lots and lots of work, but you are coming along nicely." she almost purrs, proud of how she is molding her sissy.  "I think we will begin Corset training soon. Would you like that Cindy?",  she smiles at me and pets my hair. "Oh yes Miss."

She nods and pauses for a moment, using her hand on my head to steady herself as she lifts her left foot up and nudges my clit around with it. "You'll have to be a good girl to earn that Cindy. But I do want you to have a more feminine shape, that would please me.", I swoon as her words wash over me.

Still using me for balance, she takes off her top and tosses it on a chair behind her, then she works her skirt down her legs, wiggling out of it, making sure her smooth and freshly shaved pussy lingers just in front of my face. I know better than to start without her command or prodding, so I just inhale deeply loving the scent of her sex. She bumps my clitty with each of her feet in turn as she steps out of her skirt. "One of these days I may as well lock that thing away, it's only good for making cum for you to eat anyways.", she smiles down at me and continues... "Would you give up a week of freedom to taste my pussy?" she hovers her sex just in front of my face, almost touching it... "would you let me lock that useless thing away for a whole week.. so you could focus on me the way you should be? Kiss my pussy once for yes.", she almost whispers and before the sentence has even finished escaping her lips, my mouth plants a single kiss on the power I serve.

"That's a good girl. Now service me as I have taught you!", at her command and the tug on my hair I lean in and begin to kiss her sex, short kisses all over it, using my tongue to slowly spread her lips and taste her juice. I love seeing the little red kiss marks my lipstick leaves on her, and I moan as I explore her. A mixture of slow kisses and long licks, short suckles and sliding my tongue deep inside her. I moan at how I adore her taste, how I love my place and belong there between her legs. I use my mouth on her and pull her closer with my hands on her hips, just seeing my red fingertips against her skin makes my clitty throb as I worship her.

She is moaning above me, using my face the way I love, moving her hips around and fucking herself with my mouth. She closes her thighs around my face, trying to pull me deeper into her as my tongue explores her soft and sweet sex, telling me what a good pussy eater and good girl I am. Smothering my face with her sex, I can feel her wetness dripping from my chin. She continues to ride my face from my place on my knees, panting and using me, until she cums.. she pulls me so close I can almost not breathe, and I swallow the flow from her pussy as fast as I can, licking and lapping all of it up, lost in the love of my service to her.

When she is finally done shaking and cumming, she pushes my face away, leans down and kisses me deeply. "You are such a good girl. Now go redo your make up, fetch me some clean panties, and get back to the dishes.", she says as she sits on the couch and I obey, still savoring her taste in my mouth.

Writing on the Wall

I am so glad to be home. [swoon]

First thing I did was get a warm shower, shave my tiny balls and bits, underarms and pussy. Then I dried off and after lotion, pulled on my newest pair of panties. Gods my clitty felt so snuggly and good back inside of them.

I was lucky enough to have some time to myself last evening and it reminded me of how badly I ache for training and degradation. I decided to masturbate, so I rubbed my silly clit until I was just about to cum, I did so until my useless bit was leaking pre-cummies into my panties, then I put on some nylons, they felt so nice and warm on my legs and tight against my girly parts. I put one leg over my chair and spread my legs like a good sissy, since a girl can't properly get off without being spread, while rubbing my clit in small circles with my finger tips, this is such a great sissy way to masturbate. I gently touched my pussy a few times which made my clit even harder in my panties. I thought of how it would be to ride a strap-on dick, and my little button just throbbed until I came.

<3
Cindy

My Sissy Time Today

Today I repainted my toes a cute pink with blue tips. I am starting to get pretty good at painting them. I also redid my fingernails with the "Touch of Color" Pink Polish I have, so they are very subtle. I took a nice warm shower and scrubbed with a pretty rose smelling body wash, then shaved (as usual) my feet, arm pits, pussy, silly balls and my tiny clit. I have started shaving above my clitty in a little patch. [blush] I like the way it looks.

I dried off and put lotions on my thighs, pulled on my newest panties and hand washed my other pair for tomorrow. Lastly I put on my Secret Baby Powder deodorant.

I can't wait for bedtime so I can give that cock a good sucking before I sleep and dream of serving.

I can't wait to wear my nylons tomorrow as well.

<3

Cindy

Worshiping Her (Fiction)

Worshiping Her

I walk into the room where she is waiting for her sissy, Goddess she, and feast my eyes upon her form as she lays silently, waiting for my worship. Her red tresses fall around her shoulders and frame her glowing face. She is wearing almost nothing, just black thigh highs a black garter belt and amazing black heels that make me jealous. She lounges on the couch and looks at me as I fall to my hands and knees and crawl toward her. Reaching her feet, I look up and she smiles with a nod. My signal to begin... I breath her in, and her body is intoxicating. Her beautiful hips and breasts, her curves that I long to taste.. her smooth yet powerful pussy and nipples waiting for my painted finger tips.

I start by kissing her shoes, running my fingers across their shape and using my mouth to savor her gift to me. My finger tips wander around her ankles as my mouth follows, slowly working my way up each succulent calf to her knees, and toward her milky thighs waiting like treasures just above her nylons. I use my mouth softly, leaving just small kiss imprints from my lipstick across her flesh. Gods I love her taste. My fingers dance up across her thighs and hips, taking long strokes to cherish and adore them, up across her beautiful stomach toward her breasts, her nipples and roundness waiting for my red nails. I let my fingers trace her breasts as my mouth continues its slow trail of kisses up her body, pausing only for a moment to breath the scent of her powers in.

I touch her gently, cupping my hands on her breasts and working them across her beauty as my fingers begin to roll and gently pinch her nipples to erection. She moans softly and whispers that I am a good girl, her words and sounds bring a smile to my painted lips as I begin to kiss across her breasts, letting my tongue taste her salt and moving in.. I begin to ravish her nipples with my mouth just the way she loves. I worship her breasts and nipples until she is breathing heavily and starts to push my head back down.

She rolls onto her side and puts a leg over my shoulder, a great reward she knows for her sissy to be allowed to worship her ass. I keep one hand on her breasts, using my fingers to tease and gently pinch her perk nipples as my other hand traces the shape of her Ass, one cheek at a time.. across the back of her thighs... my mouth follows and she starts to move her hips as I give her pleasure. I find her anus with my tongue and swoon beneath her as she moans almost in time with my sounds. Slow licks and small jabs to explore her hole, this is where I belong.

Finally she can take no more and shifting a bit, forces my whore mouth to her beautiful pussy. I devour her. Using my tongue and lips to probe and clean and lick, small circles with my tongue, her hands are in my hair now and the gentleness is gone. She is simply using her property, and I adore her for it. I am moaning as her hips buck and she slides my mouth across her hot sex.. using me.. and finally forces me to swallow her cum.

She shudders and shakes, calling me a good whore.. pulling me into her flesh as I slowly clean her orgasm. She makes me just sit there and wait until finally done with my warm breath. Serving her is my reward.

Shopping and Sparklies

This weekend I bought a new sparkle nail polish to add on top of my toes. Which I redid today with a super cute pink that I "borrowed" from my roommate. I also bought a cute new pair of panties and 2 pairs of nylons.

Here are the pink and sparkle tosies. [purr]

Tinkle Time

Since I started trying to wear panties every day, I have noticed I am doing some things almost automatically, that make me blush a little and smile.

1. I sit to pee all the time now.
2. I can use that time to lotion my inner thighs and girly bits and get them nice and soft.

Touch Ups & Squirts

I went camping over the weekend, which was nice. But what was nicer was when I was able to take a bath this morning and shave my silly clit and balls, under arms and feet. I hate hair in those places. Yuck.

I repainted my toe nails a pretty pink and used a touch of color pink on my fingers. I need to cut my nails though, which makes me sad. I broke a couple while camping.

After my bath, this sissy whore to got out a dildo to suck on and play with her teeny clitty until she made her yummies. It was so nice to slide that cock into my mouth and swirl my tongue around it while teasing and tugging on my sissy button. It only took 8 minutes before I was moaning all over the cock in my mouth and squirting.

Just another reminder of why my clit is of no real use to real woman, which of course I already knew, but the slight humiliation of it was wonderful. It reminded me that it belongs in panties, and that my sissy pussy, mouth and maybe a strap on to wear are the only use I am to women sexually.

Purple Love

Last night this sissy decided to paint her finger and toe nails with a pretty plum purple. I do so love having my toes painted, and the purple looks very yummy.

My fingers are a different matter however... just seeing them as I type this diary entry, when I smoke, or anytime really, has my useless little clitty straining inside my panties. I am not used to keeping them painted and I have already had to fix a couple from chores today outside.

I have always only dressed or painted my fingernails for specific encounters, so keeping them painted is a new challenge. Let's just say I got an interesting few looks when I was at Wal-Mart today. I kind of like that feeling of humiliation, but I feel I would prefer to only paint them for my sissy play and training times, well see if that changes.

I also decided to get time in with a dildo, so I picked out my purple one. It's my favorite to use on myself, even if it is my smallest one. I set in on the desk in front of me and slowly ran my painted nails with both hands all over it, kissing and licking it gently from top to bottom, over and over. After a few minutes of that adoration, I lowered my mouth and lips onto it. First I sucked the head, rolling my tongue around it and moaning as I slowly moved down the shaft.. drool dribbling from my mouth, I started to use my hands.. loving how my painted nails looked.. stroking it and throwing my mouth on it. I even deep throated it a few times, and I love the way I sound when I gag... like sputtering submission. Lastly I used my finger to collect the pre-cum from my tiny clit and wiped it on the dildo so I could clean it off. It was an enjoyable 10 minutes to say the least.

I am such a sissy whore. Just writing this out has me wanting to touch myself through my panties, and eat my cummies again.

<3<3
Cindy

Serving Her (Fiction)

I am alone in a large room, waiting on my hands and knees for my Mistress. Eyes down and naked except for the candy apple red polish on my fingers and toes, the cool of the tile against my shaved legs and body keeping my tiny clit hard at attention. There is a single table and a single chair in the room. The table is covered with various items, an assortment from clothes to shoes and toys of all sorts.

I hear my Miss come in and close the door.

"Keep your eyes closed!" she commands, and I feel her apply some sort of lip gloss to my mouth. She puts a wig on me securely and then pulls my head to her crotch. "Can you smell my power sissy?" she asks, and a moan escapes my lips just before the words "Yes Mistress" follow.

She instructs me to stand and open my eyes. Item by item she prepares me for my service, this is our first time she tells me, and so she wants to be sure I know how to prepare for her. First she inspects my body for hair, teasing my sissy balls and hard clit, running her fingers across my pussy and over my legs. Satisfied she moves on. She takes a black plug from the table and forces it into my mouth while laughing. "That's right.. open up like a good girl".. and with a slow kiss from her lips she reaches around and slides it inside me with a  rough pop. I moan and she laughs again. She moves it around and comments on how much I must like my pussy filled like a good girl, and again I can only moan a reply.

Next comes the breast forms, she glues them in place and puts a bra on me. She smiles a little as she notices I am using a woman's deodorant. Then comes a garter belt, black tight thigh highs and the matching panties, she slithers them up my body on onto me. Tucking my sissy tool into the panties. "That thing is so small, let's just put it away." Lastly come the shoes, 4" black rounded toe heels.. and her sissy is complete, sans make up. She will instruct me in those arts later she whispers.

She goes and sits in the chair and makes me walk around the room for her, laughing at my itty bitty clitty in my panties and asking me if the plug in my cunt feels good. Telling me how she is going to train me to take her cocks of all sizes in my holes. I prance around for her, humiliated and totally in love.

She calls me before her and tells me to kneel. Slowly she spreads her legs and allows me to finally see her amazing sex. "Tell me how you want to serve my pussy." she growls... "Tell me how you want to clean my ass and be my toilet." I immediately start to grovel. "Mmm oh Mistress, I love the taste of your cum.. please let me taste you pussy. I need it so bad, it's where my mouth belongs. I'll do anything, feed me your piss.. make me clean your asshole with my tongue.. anything.. please Miss." She smile and spreads her legs a little and motions me to service her.

I dive in, my hungry mouth swallowing and licking, taking her succulent pussy in as much as I can, using my tongue to explore and worship it. She grabs my hair and pulls me in tighter.. moving my face around to pleasure herself with. I am licking and sucking and eating her sex the way she taught me and my reward is brewing inside her. Without warning she pushes me back onto the floor and mounts my face.. hips bucking and sliding across my face.. fucking me.. using me.. she slaps my clit a little and laughs. "That's right girl.. lick me good!" I can feel her cumming.. and I swallow it all.

She just sits there as I clean her. Finally releasing her pent up golden flow into my mouth, I drink as much as I can but some escapes and runs down my cheeks onto the floor.

She stands and instructs me to lick her piss off the floor and she starts to strap on a cock. A wicked grin on her face... "I'm going to do you and then you are going to do me." She informs me as she rolls a condom down it's black length.

"Now be a good girl an hold that plug in your mouth."

To be Continued...

Girls just want to have Fun!

Cindy learned that she liked feminine clothes at a young age, and over the years, this sissy has explored this side of herself to varying degrees. Mostly just wearing panties now and then, toe nail polish, a few full dress ups, even fewer play sessions with pandering lovers, and a lot of personal fantasy and online play.

She has never really explored it as fully as she would like. So she is creating this space to explore her growing needs and trials. This will be the diary of a sissy girl aching to be trained and molded. Her transformation from a silly wanton girl in her mind, to a pussy and ass licking, piss drinking service slut and real sissy. Begging for her full conversion into the worthless sissy cunt she is.

This will be a space for photos that get her clitty all ready in her panties, as well as stories, thoughts and updates.